5w 4d

So yea, im doing exactly what I said I wouldn't.... worrying!! Its just so hard not to - every little thing I seem to be over analysing, its doing my head in (and probably my husband's too). While initially yesterday with my blood results I was stoked, I came home and saw my miscarriage blood results and it was around this time I started to slow up... so this got me worrying that it will happen again. And my "symptoms" just don't seem to be there as much as they were - I know some people would be stoked to not feel crap but I just want some sort of sign that my baby is ok and won't be taken from me again. Needless to say, I feel quite emotional right now. I just wish there was a way to know, a way to believe in my body, a way to believe in my baby.... I want to so badly believe and not be the crazy lady who is a worry wart. I hate feeling that I shouldn't be anything other than happy but the simple fact is im scared :(