So im growing quite a bit now!!! Have had to change my uniform at work as was getting tight, getting constant comments about my belly. Its quite weird, the constant talk about my 'size'. I haven't yet had the random person come up and talk to me or touch me, thank goodness.... that will be a weird moment!!! ha ha
Our wee girl moves about heaps now. My hubby still hasn't felt the kicks - can't wait until he does! Its such a weird feeling, and I totally feel more connected with her since I can feel her in there. Im also wondering if im getting the occasional braxton hicks now - I get some very tight cramps below my belly, mostly when I stand up. They are quite painful and last for about a min or so.
Our baby room is coming along - we have all the furniture now! We just need to dress it up with some colour and life. We don't want a typical 'pink' room but definitely want it too feel like a little girl lives in there, just not too over the top with girly-ness!!! Its so fun, we imagine her in our life all the time now. Imagine what she looks like, the traits she will have. We just can't wait to meet her!!!
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Sunday, January 29, 2012
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
21w 5d
The last 2 days I have been off work - I have been having headaches/migraines that won't go away. Its been like a constant band of throbbing across my head as well as up my neck to the base of my head. I tried things like panadol, panadiene and paracode. I have been sitting in a darkened room, and using a nice cold pack but it was still persisting. My midwife asked me to go to the GP so I did that today.
It wasn't my usual doctor that I saw unfortunately, but the outcome was that she believed it was related to muscular tension. Basically she said I need to find ways to relax more. I discussed that im getting exhausted with work etc and she said that won't be helping and to maybe consider cutting down work sooner than the 28week mark that we have planned.
I spoke about this with my midwife and she agreed. I asked about the possibility of staying but doing lighter duties which she said is a possibility but would need to talk to my boss.... this could be a problem. I don't believe my boss would be understanding. I have said im struggling which is why I was dropping down to 4-day weeks from 28w onwards, but to say I need to do lighter duties I just don't think will go down well. I worry that if I did, work colleagues would resent me as they would need to pick up my workload. Or my boss says that they can't support that and force me to go on maternity leave sooner than I had planned (both financially and mentally). Argh!!! More stress for me to worry about!!!
My husband, and basically everyone else I talk to says that I need to put myself first. I just don't know how to do this! Im so worried about other people and their reactions and the extra load I put on them (including my husband who will be doing more at home). I know this is my time to be selfish, but I can't bear having to deal with other people's disappointments in me. It stresses me and worries me so much as it is!
I just don't know what to do. How can I last the rest of this pregnancy like this? How can I go on not changing the things that im struggling with?? How can I stop the tears of worry that I have??? I never ever thought my pregnancy would be like this :-(
It wasn't my usual doctor that I saw unfortunately, but the outcome was that she believed it was related to muscular tension. Basically she said I need to find ways to relax more. I discussed that im getting exhausted with work etc and she said that won't be helping and to maybe consider cutting down work sooner than the 28week mark that we have planned.
I spoke about this with my midwife and she agreed. I asked about the possibility of staying but doing lighter duties which she said is a possibility but would need to talk to my boss.... this could be a problem. I don't believe my boss would be understanding. I have said im struggling which is why I was dropping down to 4-day weeks from 28w onwards, but to say I need to do lighter duties I just don't think will go down well. I worry that if I did, work colleagues would resent me as they would need to pick up my workload. Or my boss says that they can't support that and force me to go on maternity leave sooner than I had planned (both financially and mentally). Argh!!! More stress for me to worry about!!!
My husband, and basically everyone else I talk to says that I need to put myself first. I just don't know how to do this! Im so worried about other people and their reactions and the extra load I put on them (including my husband who will be doing more at home). I know this is my time to be selfish, but I can't bear having to deal with other people's disappointments in me. It stresses me and worries me so much as it is!
I just don't know what to do. How can I last the rest of this pregnancy like this? How can I go on not changing the things that im struggling with?? How can I stop the tears of worry that I have??? I never ever thought my pregnancy would be like this :-(
Friday, January 13, 2012
21w
Wow, this whole being pregnant thing isn't easy at times!!!
Im finding it physically difficult at the moment - partly because of the heat, my job is physically demanding, and I have a chronic back pain issue that up until now hasn't really been too bad but has now kicked in. Not to mention these ongoing quakes that keep me awake at night, anxious that there might be more. All in all im feeling very fatigued, drained and tired! I had a melt down with my husband last night, said I wasn't coping and finding it hard. Not only physically but I also feel bad that im letting people down cos I can't do things i.e. work people, or that im not pulling my weight at home. My husband was totally understand however, said he will help me more at home (he already is helping).
In regards to work im planning my leave - im looking at dropping down to 4 days at work from 28 weeks, then from 32 weeks im on annual leave for 4 weeks before I start my official maternity leave at 36weeks. Its safe to say, I can't wait!!!
On a brighter note.... I have felt her kick!!! Like a proper kick!!! I have been feeling more active movements - like swirls or popping. But when I was getting my eyebrows waxed, she must have felt my pain and kicked out ha ha!! It felt like the twitch/spasm that I felt at my scan but there was more of them. Yay!!! Can't wait to feel her more and more, it makes me feel so much closer to her!!
Our nursery is slowly starting to come together. We are doing a bird theme - got the cutest quilt for the cot, I love it! I love buying stuff for her and imagining her either in the clothes or in her room. We are talking more and more about "wonder what she will look like" - its fun to imagine her before she arrives!!! Its so exciting, I can't wait!!!
Im finding it physically difficult at the moment - partly because of the heat, my job is physically demanding, and I have a chronic back pain issue that up until now hasn't really been too bad but has now kicked in. Not to mention these ongoing quakes that keep me awake at night, anxious that there might be more. All in all im feeling very fatigued, drained and tired! I had a melt down with my husband last night, said I wasn't coping and finding it hard. Not only physically but I also feel bad that im letting people down cos I can't do things i.e. work people, or that im not pulling my weight at home. My husband was totally understand however, said he will help me more at home (he already is helping).
In regards to work im planning my leave - im looking at dropping down to 4 days at work from 28 weeks, then from 32 weeks im on annual leave for 4 weeks before I start my official maternity leave at 36weeks. Its safe to say, I can't wait!!!
On a brighter note.... I have felt her kick!!! Like a proper kick!!! I have been feeling more active movements - like swirls or popping. But when I was getting my eyebrows waxed, she must have felt my pain and kicked out ha ha!! It felt like the twitch/spasm that I felt at my scan but there was more of them. Yay!!! Can't wait to feel her more and more, it makes me feel so much closer to her!!
Our nursery is slowly starting to come together. We are doing a bird theme - got the cutest quilt for the cot, I love it! I love buying stuff for her and imagining her either in the clothes or in her room. We are talking more and more about "wonder what she will look like" - its fun to imagine her before she arrives!!! Its so exciting, I can't wait!!!
Friday, January 6, 2012
20 weeks!!!!!!!
Wow, half way!!!! I can hardly believe it!!!! There are some moments when it feels like its taken forever (probably because I knew so early on) but then other times im amazed at how quickly it has gone!!!
I have got a true preggie belly now - no mistaking it! I enjoy that people know and look at it, makes me feel special.
Im struggling a bit in the heat, mostly on the days I work as my job is so active. I go home with such hot puffy feet and feel very tired by the end of the day. Im counting down to maternity leave now - 12 weeks until a month of annual leave and then im on it!! Other than that im doing reasonably well. Haven't put on much weight and to be honest haven't gone "preggie feeding" - I haven't really felt more hungry than usual, just occasionally. I have also started to notice I am getting breathless easily, again mostly at work as its super active. But all in all, nothing to complain about :)
I have been feeling the odd wriggles but nothing really definite still - still don't know if its the baby or not but its fun thinking it is. I did have a moment where I had a twitch in my tummy and didn't think much of it... but it was during our anatomy scan and they mentioned "bubs just kicked, did you feel it?" So I have been waiting for more!! Can't wait until its constantly moving and then when my hubby can feel the kicks.
So our anatomy scan went well - all is well, very healthy and growing perfectly. We also found out who will be joining our family.......... a wee girl!!! We so can not wait to meet her, she is already the most precious thing in the world to us!!! Perfect in every way
Its all happening, its getting so exciting. We are building up our wee girls room and can't wait for her arrival.... but she still has some cooking to do yet ;)
Oh and happy new years everyone - I know that 2012 is going to be an amazing year xx
I have got a true preggie belly now - no mistaking it! I enjoy that people know and look at it, makes me feel special.
Im struggling a bit in the heat, mostly on the days I work as my job is so active. I go home with such hot puffy feet and feel very tired by the end of the day. Im counting down to maternity leave now - 12 weeks until a month of annual leave and then im on it!! Other than that im doing reasonably well. Haven't put on much weight and to be honest haven't gone "preggie feeding" - I haven't really felt more hungry than usual, just occasionally. I have also started to notice I am getting breathless easily, again mostly at work as its super active. But all in all, nothing to complain about :)
I have been feeling the odd wriggles but nothing really definite still - still don't know if its the baby or not but its fun thinking it is. I did have a moment where I had a twitch in my tummy and didn't think much of it... but it was during our anatomy scan and they mentioned "bubs just kicked, did you feel it?" So I have been waiting for more!! Can't wait until its constantly moving and then when my hubby can feel the kicks.
So our anatomy scan went well - all is well, very healthy and growing perfectly. We also found out who will be joining our family.......... a wee girl!!! We so can not wait to meet her, she is already the most precious thing in the world to us!!! Perfect in every way
Its all happening, its getting so exciting. We are building up our wee girls room and can't wait for her arrival.... but she still has some cooking to do yet ;)
Oh and happy new years everyone - I know that 2012 is going to be an amazing year xx
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