27w 5d

Ok so turns out I was wrong..........


My glucose test shows that I do in fact have gestational diabetes :(
So I know I was at risk with the PCOS and family history, but I guess I just didn't think I would get it!! I don't seem to have any symptoms of it but as my midwife said you don't necessarily get any.


So what now??
My midwife has referred me to see a specialist - hopefully will get an appointment within the next week. Sounds like they get onto it quick smart. She also thinks I will likely go on insulin as im currently on metformin to help me not get GD.... lets hope they can just up my dose and I don't need to inject myself daily!!! Its a give-in now that I will have shared care. And according to my midwife the likely hood is I will be induced around 37-38 weeks... I guess the silver lining there is we get to meet our daughter sooner but hopefully fit and healthy without the risks associated with GD.


So not what we were expecting or hoping. I guess its good to know so I can be properly monitored. Im so scared of eating food though now - worried that im harming us both!! Will be good to talk with the dietitian and find out more. 


Feeling even more glad now that I brought my finishing date at work forward 2 weeks - will no doubt be busy with specialist appointments that I would just hate having to take time out from work all the time. So much for relaxing before she comes aye!!


Its hard not to feel like a failure though, like I have let us both down. I know its not my fault (or is it??) and that I was always at risk... I guess I just thought the tough road to get pregnant was my hard bit done, didn't want it to end on a hard note also :(

27w 2d

Wow, time is flying by now!!!

Can't believe I am almost at the 3rd trimester mark, I truly feel blessed. Despite my own difficulties in conceiving, I am blessed and I know this. My heart breaks for those I know who have had failed attempts, I couldn't imagine the constant disappointment and the fading dream... I only hope they too hold onto hope and get their own special dream come true one day soon.


So for the last few weeks since my last update, lots have been going on. My baby girl is kicking quite often now - its a weird but amazing feeling!! I can even see her wriggling around in there. The best thing about her moving heaps now is that my hubby can feel her too. Its so special to share in that with him and see the joy on his face when he has those bonding moments with his daughter. I just love it!!


My tummy is nice and round, definitely looking quite pregnant now! Im getting comments of how big I am, but I think im not really - its just they way it looks when I stand as I hyperextend through my legs!! Got heaps more growing to do yet :)


Had my 2nd glucose tolerance test yesterday - it was alot harder than the one I did at 13 weeks, sitting for that long sure isn't comfortable!!! Will get the results this coming week. Im sure it will be fine. If anything, I think my iron levels will be low as im so fatigued. I guess time will tell!!


I have arranged with my work for me to finish work 2 weeks sooner than I had originally planned. Was a hard decision to make, but physically im struggling so much with working a busy physical job that it was bringing me down - I would have days when I would come home from work in tears because I was so sore and tired. While I knew carrying a bubba would be hard because of all my pain/back issues however I do think I underestimated how hard it would be. I guess its not until your in that position that you know exactly what the physical toll is!! So now im finishing at 30weeks!!! Not long to go now. I think its the best decision for me and my baby - I need to be well rested physically, and after the tough last few years it will be good to be rested emotionally. And hopefully I can be the best mummy possible to my special girl.


89 days to go to due date!!! So so excited!!! can't wait to meet you beautiful baby girl xx