ho hum

Its been a tough week for me this week. A couple people I know are pregnant, another had a baby... and I feel as though im still lagging. Its always such a double edge saw - I want to feel so happy for my friends but there is always such a strong feeling of jealousy that its not me. I doubt my friends would understand this, I shouldn't be so selfish is probably what they think. Unless you have been through this tough journey of infertility and loss then I don't think you can really understand the emotions of it. I am truly happy for my friends, just jealous that its not me and that its so much easier for them. Its definitely been great for me to have my online forums and groups to discuss things like this in - likeminded people who understand, its been truly helpful for me over the years.


So today im CD34, still haven't ovulated :(
I have made an appointment with an acupuncturist who specialises in fertility treatment and works closely with Repromed in the pre treatment and also to compliment it. Fingers crossed this will help!!
I also had my yearly smear - hoping that thats normal, last thing I need is another abnormal bloody smear!!!

Sometimes it really does suck to be a woman!