Today im CD40. Earlier in the week I had crosshairs put on my chart indicating I had ovulated. A few days later than were taken away from me, and now they are back. So im not entirely sure if I have even ovulated - talk about confusing!! Why can't any of this be just so much easier???
Another thing im no longer sure about is whether or not I will get my IVF this year. I met up with some girls last night who are at different stages of treatment through Repromed here in Christchurch and what became very clear was that its not a quick process, even when making it to the top of the list. Some of them are on to their multiple attempts, some of those have lapsed in their waiting times and are still waiting to even get their screening letters so if they haven't and were due before me then im sure as hell not going to. Its all just so disheartening, just when you think something may go our way then there are more set-backs. How on earth can I prepare myself for more of this? Im only just really beginning in this journey - can I honestly keep strong to get the end result? Can I honestly endure more and more of this?? I just don't know if I can :(
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