36w 3d

As suspected, time is slowing down ha ha!!! I guess its to be expected, especially as labour, birth and meeting our wee girl is all I can think about now.


With reaching the 36week mark we have now started to hand express our colostrum to be able to give baby as soon as she is born. This is because she has a high risk of dropping her blood glucose levels once she is cut from the cord because of the GD. Its "liquid gold" and even the smallest amount is enough to help. While I have been taught the technique of doing the expressing, its really hard. I have only been able to get some very small amounts - and while they say that its ok to get just a very small amount, its hard not to feel like a failure. Im trying to not be hard on myself but I guess with any parenting, you only want the best.... I just have to remember that even the smallest amount is giving her the best!


Today I had a midwife appointment - im now down to weekly! We discussed what happens with the induction process. She said that I will likely start off with a balloon catheter to soften the cervix, then look at trying the gel to soften it, and then go on to the medical route. She said worse case scenario is that it can take up to 4 days (yikes) and if at this point there is still no baby, will look to a Cesarean. We discussed that while i'll try to go without the pain relief for a little bit (im thinking not that long), that logically induction is hard on the body so will then go to an epidural to help get through - especially if we are looking at the worse case scenario. And besides, I have had things hard throughout the pregnancy, if we can make something a little bit easier why not!!! Im still scared about the epidural tho - the thought of the needle in the spine is quite scary! We also talked about what to do in the event that I went into early labour, just to cover all bases :)


Its so surreal making plans and discussing through what to expect. This is just another of those moments that I have to pinch myself to believe its happening. Even when I look at my belly sometimes im like "wow is that really me??" The light at the end of the tunnel is becoming brighter. I just now need my induction date - bring on Thursday when hopefully the obstetricians play the game and give it to me!!!