32w 6d

Well its been a full on week for me this week!!!


I started it off with Monday when I was feeling so completely emotional! I cried most of the day, it was so exhausting! The thing that was mostly getting me down was the feeling of being so overwhelmed by feeling so blah, tired, short of breath, and that everything is just getting so hard. Its such a conflicting thing - wishing away a pregnancy that I worked so hard to achieve... I feel guilty for this. I of course don't wish away the life that we have created however this pregnancy sure has been hard and as it turns out... isn't going to be getting any easier any time soon.


On Wednesday I saw my physio while I was at swimming and told her about this pain I have been getting in my left groin that has slowly been getting worse to the point that I now have pain 24hrs a day, walking is hard, and im finding it hard to sleep. She believes I have Symphysis Pubis Dysfunction (SPD). I now have an appointment with her next week where she will look to me trying some crutches to use for distance, and to also get a specific belt to help hold my pelvis together!! I advised my midwife of this new diagnosis and looks like it will effect my labour in terms of positions that I can be in - there are some I cant go into if im able to do a vaginal birth.....


And today I had a diabetes specialist appointment. I advised them of my sickly feeling along with the constant fatigue. They looked at my levels and 95% of the time I am achieving great levels... however im not eating enough! So because im not having enough to eat my body is starting to attack my protein levels to try and get some energy as I don't have enough carbs in my system. This is why I have been feeling so crap and lethargic!!!
So now I start on insulin, have to inject myself with every meal (as well as still take my metformin) and increase my meal size. The hope is I can still maintain my levels while getting more fuel into the system! And the bonus is I don't have to be so restrictive with what I eat!!! 


Fingers crossed that life will get easier and the remainder of this pregnancy is drama free.... the way its been thus far its hard to imagine that this will be the case. Just have to remember that she is worth it :)