Today I had a "me" day at home. I woke up and started to get ready for work but with this meds im having daily icky poos (sorry for the too much info on that) and today I just felt ick so decided it would do me the world of good to have a day to myself to refocus and deal with the disappointments of yesterday. It was the best thing I could have done! I went back to bed and stayed there until midday until I got up for lunch, then watched back to back episodes of one of my favourite programs, played ball with my dog, went to acupuncture and then had a nice Thai dinner. I barely even thought about the IVF. I just relaxed.
I had a good talk with hubby last night about how I was feeling about it all. Was good to get things off my chest and realise that my "perfect dream" of lots of follicles and then lots of chances is not the reality of things. It is what it is - my cards have been dealt. I need to focus on these being the best ones available to me, what ever the final number at collection. Its a rocky road - im entitled to grieve the set backs and disappointments.... but I need to move on otherwise I will just go crazy!!
A good friend of mine said it to me perfectly "Don't give up - it is a tough and crappy journey you are on but your baby is waiting for you. One follicle - one egg - one sperm - one baby! I believe in you"
Its time I believe in myself too x
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