So I feel I have been a negative nancy of late. I keep looking at all the shitty sides of my situation. Its so easy to just fall into a pattern of how unfair this is or how it sucks that im not pregnant... it is all those things and it is shitty but im doing lots of positives to improve the outcomes. I need to remember that im lucky in so many ways - I know I can get pregnant, I have age on my side, I have a loving husband... things really could be worse and I need to be thankful for what I have.
A few months back I started acupuncture which im still doing. I have started seeing someone new and after one session I already feel pleased I made the switch. I feel I am being heard, I feel she is more supportive, and I think it will be a great "relationship" between us. She was talking about how I need to let go of regrets as im internalising them which is holding me back from getting my baby. I so agree - I will be working on this over the next few weeks. So watch this space.....
I have started a low GI diet - im trying to be reasonably strict but allowing myself 1 small treat a day to get me through the first few weeks. Then I hope to drop that and be completely strict with the diet. For me, I think this was the way to help me get through and "stick" to the dieting program. Again, watch this space.....
I have also tried to be a little more active. I have been sick the last few weeks so it has been hard, but we have brought a Wii to encourage exercising at home along with the stationary bike we already have. Already I have lost 2kgs so im on track for my 10kgs im hoping to lose. I also have a bit more energy so thats all good :)
So yes, things haven't changed. I still have my cycle issues (im CD40 today and still no ovulation), I still struggle to see the end in sight but im doing all I can to ensure I get the best possible outcome. Every little bit counts and I want to make it all count and I want to celebrate the small successes. I want my baby, and I WILL get my baby!!
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