1 year on

It was a year ago today that I had to say goodbye to you my bubs. I remember that day so clearly, it was so emotionally painful. I remember being on the operating table crying, thinking to myself that this was not the way you were meant to leave me. And when I woke up, you were gone. 

I don't know what you look like, I can only imagine you were beautiful and perfect. I couldn't name you as I never knew if you were a boy or girl... my heart says you were my little girl. It saddens me that I could never watch you grow, never laugh or cry with you, see you be successful in life. I failed you as a mum, thats the thing that hurts the most. I couldn't keep you from being sick. Im so sorry my little angel :(

I love you, and I will never forget you x x