21w

Wow, this whole being pregnant thing isn't easy at times!!!


Im finding it physically difficult at the moment - partly because of the heat, my job is physically demanding, and I have a chronic back pain issue that up until now hasn't really been too bad but has now kicked in. Not to mention these ongoing quakes that keep me awake at night, anxious that there might be more. All in all im feeling very fatigued, drained and tired! I had a melt down with my husband last night, said I wasn't coping and finding it hard. Not only physically but I also feel bad that im letting people down cos I can't do things i.e. work people, or that im not pulling my weight at home. My husband was totally understand however, said he will help me more at home (he already is helping).
In regards to work im planning my leave - im looking at dropping down to 4 days at work from 28 weeks, then from 32 weeks im on annual leave for 4 weeks before I start my official maternity leave at 36weeks. Its safe to say, I can't wait!!!


On a brighter note.... I have felt her kick!!! Like a proper kick!!! I have been feeling more active movements - like swirls or popping. But when I was getting my eyebrows waxed, she must have felt my pain and kicked out ha ha!! It felt like the twitch/spasm that I felt at my scan but there was more of them. Yay!!! Can't wait to feel her more and more, it makes me feel so much closer to her!!


Our nursery is slowly starting to come together. We are doing a bird theme - got the cutest quilt for the cot, I love it! I love buying stuff for her and imagining her either in the clothes or in her room. We are talking more and more about "wonder what she will look like" - its fun to imagine her before she arrives!!! Its so exciting, I can't wait!!!