Im lucky - I know this. Lucky that im pregnant. Im lucky I have gotten this far. But most of all im lucky to have a husband to help me through the rough moments. I think with pregnancy, even when you are so so happy to be pregnant, we forget that hormones go crazy and sometimes make you think the worse. I tend to be this way naturally in life - I would rather prepare myself for hurt rather than it sneak up on me and surprise me. My husband reminded me its ok to have these moments, but Petrie is FINE. Everything up to this moment has been perfect and we (ok I) have to believe that it will continue on to be that. I need to believe in my ability to have success and that this pregnancy is successful.
Its time to change my thought process, I can't go on having moments of disbelief or worry as none of that is helping... me or the baby. My husband said his job is to look after me, make me happy and help me to believe. And my job is to keep on looking after Petrie as im doing a great job.
Love him
Love him
Today I had my midwife appointment. She too was reassuring that everything is normal (who would have thought that 'normal' could be so worrying ha ha) and that im doing a great job and bubs is doing what it should. We listened to Petrie on their doppler - way better than the one we have, its so clear and he/she was so easy to find and was beating away at 140bpm. She understood that im not use to success, only failure, and said that she too will support me to believe that all will be fine. She has booked in to see us again in 3 weeks so we can listen to the heartbeat again before our scan which we will do between xmas and new years. Also she said my due date is what we initially thought so yay for being a day closer to meeting our precious bubba!!!
So today I feel better, and will be doing my best to continue on with this positivity and just "Go with the Flow". I love my baby so much, I will not give up on us xx
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