Feeling quite low at the moment... can't get passed my anxieties at the moment. With each day that passes its a victory, but yet im still waiting for something or someone to say that its all over. Its like I don't believe that I am worthy of happiness or something. On the other hand, my self esteem is really low. Im waiting for the pregnancy glow, but all im feeling is like a frumpy old maid.
The worst thing about feeling like this, is that I feeling guilty by it - I should feel nothing but happiness and gratatue that im in this position. I feel guilty that I can't just believe and trust in my abilities to be pregnant, and to be happy. Why am I like this??
Can't wait until I see that bubs is still growing with my next scan, or when I start feeling him or her moving about. But more importantly, I need to find a way to get through this and being constantly excited about this life that we have finally created, and believe in my abilities in growing bubs and then being a mother. I am worthy.... I just have to remember this.
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