These last few days I have been sick with a cold - I never really appreciated how hard it would be to get an illness when pregnant, there isn't much that your safe to take! Its actually quite frustrating! I tried to work through it all but by yesterday afternoon I just had to go home, I was so tired and feeling like crap!!! Im struggling with the feeling that im letting people down - letting work down as im off a bit at the moment (first with morning sickness which has now subsided, now this cold) and I feel like people just think im being slack. Im also feeling guilty that my husband is doing most of the cooking - feel like I should be doing more, the house work is building up, I should be helping more.
Im also at a point where im over thinking, worrying. I have been trying really hard to believe that all is well with this pregnancy but then fear sets in and takes over my positivity. I can't help it. And then if I lose this baby, everyone will be so guttered as our families are now getting excited about the prospect that there will be a baby soon... but if not, im letting them down also.
Argh, no matter what stage of this journey, there is always worry. I wish I didn't know what I do, I wish I had the naivety to just be able to go with the flow - believe that all is good, not read into the fact that my symptoms have stopped but just be thankful that im no longer feeling nausea's.
Bring on the next scan, here's hoping I can find a way to get through these next few weeks without going too crazy!!!
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